so it's 32 days to A's. and it's fri tml. great. today is supposed to be the last lesson for h3 but teacher explained the qns in the tut not fast enough and we ask so many qns. so had to have one more lesson nxt week. bleah. dragggyyyy...

tomorrow going to eat dinner wid my clique. hope it wun be awkward and they'll enjoy the meal. esp the guys la. dunno if i'll make reservation and pre-order enough. haha. and tml's special for someone. well. actually, it's in 3hours 13mins. yar. memories... was telling some of my frens lyk khalis and he wonders wad i'll do. haha. my other fren too. lol. but they all are v nice to me and helped me out. love them lots.

sigh. looking at the couples at the jam-packed train today and jus heave a sigh and feel quite sad. khalis was asking me if i wanna get attached soon. my reply? oh yes. i do hope so. soon. but i also dun want this desire to blur my judgement of the nxt guy. dun wanna make another mistake. musn't rush into things no matter how much i desire it and musn't let feelings take over again. gotta seek out the Lord and see if tat's wad He wants. dun wish for another break-up. never expected the previous one to be so. we discussed it b4 we went in. shared wad a rs and commitment means. i personally felt assured tat a break-up wun happened. yet, it did. not blaming anyone here. jus thanking God tat He has seen me through and taught me something: not to trust own judgement but His. taught me abt flexibility and bending towards God's will. taught me a lesson to be more discerning and be careful. n most importantly, that He is sovereign. my only prayer now is that i will be able to survive this period of singlehood, how-ever-long it will be. i'll nv know wad God's plan is. n who knows if He wants me to single for life. so this is my prayer: to learn to walk in-step with Him and be contented as a single now and use this time to carry out His plan...

well, was looking at the devotional book tat eleena gave me. it's 1 years old already! she gave it to me last yr sept. haha. n i haven't covered half of it! lol. but it's okay. cos aft reading one section, i'll usually pause to read some books of the bible on my own or read a book tat talks abt christian values. so i'm fine! jus thinking it's coincidental tat i saw the msg eleena wrote to me. hope to read books on Grace and Freedom after A's! n the "stop dating the church" by Joshua Harris and "Wild at Heart" by John Eldredge still linger at the back of my mind. i know jeremy has wild at heart! will borrow frm him soon! and grace and freedom...realised i know little of these 2 issues. when they're mentioned in my QT material and bible, i can only catch a glimpse of their meaning. but i want more. wanna know more on wad these 2 issues mean in a christian life... =) will borrow books frm aunty janet! haha. books are expensive, you know. each one cost over $20. plus, u have to choose carefully so u wun buy a book tat is too brief/shallow or too chim/profound tat u can't understand or too doctrinal which is not wad u want...besides, being a student, don't really have tat much cash! haha. oh well. the flower is 1 years old too...still at the same position..up there...oh. jus realised the doggy is more than 1 years old. haha. checked my photos and they say it's taken on 1june06. haha. my sis got another bear so there are 3 stuff toys here below!

youth camp: 18th-20th dec. tue to thu. thank God for pastor timothy phua being available to be our camp speaker. he's a GREAT speaker! n i hope we'll really learn much thru the sermons tat he'll give. kah hwee tot of having a workshop conducted during the camp. though she n i have different views, i'll still come alongside wid her. jus hope tat the youths wun get put-off when they know abt the workshop. n tat the adults can take leave! as for accomodation which i'm handling..haha. getting the voucher, most likely. so if the youths dun want the small bangalow, ma says it's ok tat we take it! yay! know wad tat means? a holiday/vacation nxt year b4 year-end! haha. wid another family fren of course! cool! it'll be nice for us to go tanjong puteri and play bowling together!! =)) and stay in a terrace house leh...2 storey high!

okay. see. blog too much and talk too much again. jus let feelings and tots flow. bleah. haha. muz be missing company of a fren to chat for long hours with at nite so bloggin here. lyk talking to myself/the computer/my blog. haha. wad an outlet. hope it doesn't make me anti-social! dun think it will either. frens are always better than this non-living thing made up of....plastic, microchips, electrons, atoms....etc...haha. okay. byes!