okay. so i studied alone outside. finally get to go outside for a breather. and it's definitely much better than studying at home since i know I'm starting to lose concentration at home already. it's good. at first, my family and i went to have lunch at macs at bukit panjang. then, i had plans to study there. over there, i met yann ming!! haven't toked to him for a long time. so he came over and greeted me and we chatted for a while. he was studying there wid his frens. when he left, i asked my mum if he's handsome. n hi-5! she thinks so too! haha. i've always tot so. since sec sch and yw and sh always tease me and say i got bad taste. haha. no no...my mum also thinks he's handsome. haha. yea. got company (: lol.

anyway, i studied there for not more than half-hour, i got chased out! yea. chased out! grr. the manager chased all the studying students out. it was my first time la. i was lyk..wad the...now i nid to go n buy another drink. tats my first tot. so i jus sat there and stoned to think of my nxt venue. called mum. got a lift to go catch a bus to west mall to study there. so i studied at BK. not bad. at least they dun chase ppl out. but there are ALOT of ppl there studying! i was shocked! haha. but i sat at the wrong corner. frm where i sit, i cld hear 2 music stations. one frm inside BK, another frm outside. so for a moment, i was lost and confused. dunno which one to listen n it can give quite a bit of headache. but after a while, i decided to listen to the one inside and tat was much better on my ears and head. so did quite a bit of work and got quite fed-up wid probability cos i dun understand why my answer is wrong. so i'm goin to see teacher later!

n surprisingly, i can still see ms tan at 2pm later when i sms her at nite. i tot her schedule wld be packed n i wld have no chance. but still, i decided to give it a shot. this goes to show one point: everything is worth a try. but, of course, it means everything safe/not harmful, muz go thru yr brain if it's the right thing to do. of course, this can't be applied to drugs rite? n also, dun assume things! =)

WELCOME BACK KHALIS! frm brunei! and obs! i wonder where he's goin to take me to for lunch later at PS. he say it'll be a restaurant and when i guessed secret recipe, gelare, cafe cartel, they were all wrong. so i wonder wad other restaurants are there left. haha. not eating so much breakfast now to save some space for later. haha. well, looking fwd to hearing your stories and hopefully seeing some pictures!

last nite, i was lookin thru my cupboard and saw a handphone strap. un-used. jus the strap wid a hook at the end. then, it gave me an idea to attach the cross pendant to the strap and put it on my hp. n tat's jus wad i did! it looks nice! n i hope it's a good reminder of my christian faith! actually, it goes lyk this: the chain of the necklace tat clovis gave broke suddenly a few weeks back. i was shock but there's nth to do abt it. i jus took out the pendant and kept it while i had to throw away the chain. so tat's how i got the pendant! quite a fair bit of memory flooded back when i look at the pendant. haha. sigh. those were the days man.... :P

on a separate note, i was toking to God at nite and thinking. i believe there's nth wrong wid relationships. i dun think God ever wants to see us condemn relationships for he has made us to enjoy it..u know, adam n eve. yet, it also doesn't mean everyone muz have a partner. okay. tat's besides the point i wanna make. the point here is the "when" and the "who". i believe we shld go into rs in His time and be careful and exercise good judgement on who we are entering a rs wid. so i guess it's wrong to have tat mindset to warn the person against going out wid another on a date. for God doesn't want us to be anti-social. i guess, all i can warn/advise is for tat person to guard his/her heart and be careful not to lead the person on if u really dun mean it. yeah.

on a final note, sigh. i can't slp last nite. went to bed slightly b4 12midnight but i tossed and turned till close to 1am. i jus can't slp. n tat's bad. cos i nid to quickly get into the mood of slping early at nite for my prelims! i guess 2 scenerios were on my mind...

1. i was reading a narrative. setting is slightly b4 the WW2 ended. n the narrator was a German! now, tat was something different. n she was helping to hide this russian in a secluded place; away from the villagers. so i wondered.. is tat the right thing to do? wld i do it if i were her? it's super risky to do so. wld i risk it?
2. was watching a show last nite. 2 ppl: one gynaecologist n nurse. the patient is a regular patient of the gynae n she had been in debts. so she decided to carry the last packet of drugs to pay off her debts so she can start anew wid her baby. but she din finish the job and she had to be rushed to the hospital for delivery. there, while changing the clothes, the nurse saw the packet of drugs. n after delivery, both the doctor n the nurse pretended they din see anything while the mother wash the drugs away in the toilet bowl. both did so cos they can really see tat the mother is repentent n wants to start afresh wid the kid. the policemen were outside waiting and when they went into the room to check, they found nth n so the lady got away. but wad's the right thing to do again? shld a doctor merely be a doctor and not a judge? shld the doctor cover up for the mother? while i'm positively sure tat the mother will repent and not go back to old ways, are we suppose to be citizens n leave the decision of whether the mother shld be jailed or not to the judge? n think of the implications to the child. he wld have no one to properly guide and teach the child. wld it then, be a vicious cycle where the child gets into trouble jus lyk the mum?

i wonder...n i guess it's these qns tat kept me awake. ethics. compassion. judgement. i wonder wad's the right thing to do.....