reading the last post tat can be seen from my blog. at the last para: "one thing that struck me is tat the phone n my possessions are His n if it's taken away, i should not be too worried n should jus trust God". this was indeed a reminder to me now, again. sigh. feeling pretty down now. jus suddenly. miss the times and the feelings when there is someone to look forward to every nite after dinner; after a TV show. argh. i miss it! but that last sentence...yar...everything i have is His. anything tat He has blessed me wid. He can also take away and He has the right to anyway. but one thing i can be assured of, He never does anything carelessly or for fun. rather, he has everything planned out so tat things will work out for the good and for His glory. well, Job did say this: "The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised." Job 1:20b. sigh. it's not easy to have this attitude like Job but it's not impossible. God's Word is our guide and tat includes this verse! Stand strong, Sharon!

on a separate note, i hope they aren't going thru a rough patch. i hope not. though i discovered something today but i dun wish to read into things too much. i dare not ask her. can only jus pray...

on another issue again, i wish sometimes tat i can turn things back. undo things tat has been done. i wish i can be a better sister. be a better example. do the right things. don't make wrong choices so tat i wun become a stumbling block. sigh. i wish...sometimes i really wish. n when these tots come in, i can only shake my head n say sorry to God. sigh. oh well. maybe cos i'm thinking of these things so i'm feeling down now. well, i know wad u all will say...dun look back at the past, move on ahead, dun repeat the mistakes, u can do it..blah blah blah. but sometimes, i jus wanna tok it out and dun wanna hear suggestions, as yet. reminds me of wad ppl always say abt most gals: most gals jus want the guys to listen n not wanting suggestions...familiar?

okay! today almost fell v sick...almost caught a fever since i got a flu the entire day ytday. thank God for keeping me safe thus far while i study. thank God for the short rest i'd before lunch. hope i wun get a fever or a sore throat tml and thereafter. cos i really wanna go for the BBQ tml and i nid to go for consultation on thu n my PRELIMS! are still going on nxt week plus!! musn't fall sick, gal! =)

hmm. everytime i think of that issue, i can't help feelin scared. i dunno how things will turn out on tat day. i wonder how to face the situation. n i hope my attitude will be acceptable. now, trying not to think now. cos everytime i think of it, i tend to argue in my head. tend to take revenge. play wid words. be sarcastic. n tat's certainly not good. i really wonder how to face it man. getting scared now. sigh. i think i nid a breather now. okay. shall not type anymore. shall tok now..talk to God!