so i went there last nite. make-up at sh's house. den waited for her fren to come down. took a cab down tat cost $3.50 each. and i was so surprised that a hotel is jus beside it. i'll be quite upset if i were a tourist staying there. saw many ppl.

then, kai yi (i hope i spell correctly) and sh started complainin abt the long queue. they tried to call their frens to cut the queue but none were queuing at that time. even melissa and josh had already got an entrance into it. so we had to queue right frm the back. but it wasn't that bad after all. it moves and it's quite fast. so check IC and check bag. they din ask any qns. and kai yi had to memorise another person's IC. haha.

thankfully i went to see the website and got a glimpse at how the place looks lyk. so i wun be wow-ing myself away. so jus went in. the crowd wasn't too bad. put our bags at the counter and went to toilet. then i carelessly left my tag in the cubicle la! when i went back to get it, it's almost lyk begging the cleaner to give it back to me. cos a lost of tag is $8 :S i sure wun want to pay that amt! got a drink. since it was 1-for-1, we got 4 glasses in total. 2 lychee martini and 2 glasses of sprite vodka mix. they almost wanted to give us 2 jugs la. yee. so drank here and there. burning but after a while, it's gone. din get drunk and din get high. hmm. i wonder why. is it i drink too little or i can hold my alcohol content? haha. yet to find out!

then, went to another section to find ky's fren. and sneak into that section too. tried to dance but din lyk the music there. made some more frens frm that clique. after that, headed to mambo and it was super crowded. squeezed in. initially had a good space then ppl started squeezing and pushing us. so it made us really quite piss. went out and wanted to sneak into the previous section but they were too strict. as it's a new rule, it pissed ky even more. then went up to outside the toilet and discussed wad to do. for me, i din mind squeezing in at the mambo dance floor. i quite lyk the music there. and i have confidence i can squeeze in well enough to get everyone a decent space to dance. hmm. anyway, we decided to try the dance floor again. thankfully, we got a space there and so we jus stayed on. lost track of the other clique until one of the guys came.

boy! i tell you! it feels so much different when there's a guy arnd! security as some may say. ie. you know he's there when you need help and when other ppl starts to get a bit too much. his name? kuok ming. and there was one time when we were so squeezed cos ppl were walking thru, he offered to switch places with ky so she wun get so many knocks. nice :) so stayed arnd. followed the actions. well, i caught many guys' eyes. they wld look at me longer than usual. but me being me, i looked away fast lah. though some can be quite handsome. ha. oh oh. i was so surprised la. some of the guys look really old..lyk close to 30s. yee.

anyway, can bear the music. can dance. but i'm not a good dancer nor extreme. so dun expect much frm me. and i jus feels strange when i see sh dance. hmm. guess a pic of her dancing never really cross my mind b4.

okay. at one pt of time, we were harrassed by 2 guys and so had to move in to join this grp of 3 guys. one of them had actually been looking at me for a long time. i've noticed. but i din bother abt him. and so when we had to merge, i was lyk..okay. then, we intro each other. he then switched places with the guy beside me so he can talk directly to me. asked for my name again and seemingly shake my hand for the 2ND time. i began to get suscipious.

he intro himself as one who's studyin med in NUS while the other 2 study law in australia. being me, i was quite thrilled to make frens. and when i told sh their status, she said, "you believe them arh?" then, i rmb that they cld be lying. so guard my heart. but i dunno how much true info i shld give to them! in any case, i jus went honest and told him which sch we all are studying. he asked for our age. i made him guess but still din reveal to him in the end. ha. then, at one point, he put his hand slightly on my shoulder. i was lyk "huh". and then quickly move my shoulder such tt his hand slips off while my eyes are lookin fwd. frm behind me, i heard his fren askin, "she angry arh?". but i din bother replying. a few seconds later, all 3 of them left.

after 5-6 songs, we saw them again, walking thru. they waved to us but left off to another area in the dance floor.

[reflective]

then, it brought me thinking: wah..they go off to find other gals arh? aiyo. do boys really come here to find gals? why? is there pleasure in it? jus recounting the 2 guys that harrassed us and the 3 guys makes me think this way.

when i arrived back at sh's hse, i wonder to myself how things will be lyk if i din shrug off the hand. i wonder how different and wad's the outcome. hmm. cheeky me.

but i know that though this cheeky side of me can think all sorts, it'll never win the battle. i wld never really put them into action. somehow. it's cultivated into me. i dunno if it'll change in the near future but i dun think so. well, jus look at how i act to all the guys whose eyes i've caught though i wld really lyk to make frens with them!

another thought: why do ppl dance? and some dance until so crazy with all the sleak moves. why? to attract attention? to sweat it out? to go with the flow? i dun really understand though. perhaps, that's why, i am not a good dancer and not so provactive. i definitely dun wanna attract attention and there's no one to whom i'm showing off to. i din bring any guy frens along. so who am i impressing? sigh. seein all these somehow makes me see the needs of the world...that they nid to see and know a purpose..for their life. and the purpose is definitely not found in dancing and attracting attention.

well, all in all, it wun be my top priority. i dunno if i'll go the nxt time. but if frens ask me again, i may consider. the nxt step for me? pubbing! and trying out more drinks! haha. i think i may lyk pubbing more. the slow music, slow pace and nice chats with frens :)