as i mentioned previously, my aunt and uncle and cousin and cousin-in-law are here in my hse. they'll be leaving today. and i've been arnd them talking to them or listening to their conversations nonetheless. always conversing in cantonese, i started to envy (in not-so-bad sense) my cousin who's married. whenever she wanna mention my cousin-in-law to us, she'll say my "lou kuong". that's "husband" in cantonese. man. it's signifies a status and a bond that she shares with this man. and to tell everyone he's her husband is really something wow. i wonder when i'll have a chance to say that. to say "my husband" to those around me...man. wad honour God bestows on married couples.

Was also hearing how my cousin-in-law calls my aunt "mum". so sun4 ko2 (words coming out from lips easily) and so nice to hear that. it's a sense of belonging. a reminder that a marriage is not jus a union of two people but two families... i wonder who will call my own mum his mum. and i wonder how it'll be like...to hear someone calling my mum so. and i will be calling his mum my mother too..one who takes care of both of us, cares and loves us. wow..so cool!

i wonder when will be my turn...be patient, Sharon!