right. so my mum read my blog. found out when she talked abt an issue that i've never told her but somehow she knew. well, i wasn't surprised. afterall, a blog is for all to read. But i did feel a bit uneasy. i somehow knew that if she knew abt it, she won't be happy and would chide me. all these were true. sigh. i had it coming. but at least it wasn't too harsh. glad she pointed out to me frm a biblical perspective. now, i understand the verse better. it's so true and revelant. it's not easy to keep but it's still something that has to be done. I just need a stronger conviction and discipline. maybe there can be another approach to this issue...

"'Everything is permissible'—but not everything is beneficial. 'Everything is permissible'—but not everything is constructive."
1 Cor 10:23

on another hand, sigh. i was troubled since this morning. so i made a stupid careless mistake. i wish i never did. then, when i return to hall, i was still upset and had a hard time setting my heart down. even though i kept muttering prayers, they were just words. finally, i knew i had to stop everything i was doing, sit on my bed and earnestly pray and commit this whole thing to God's hand. then, i went to slp. for a while. thank God the slp helped me. and of course, the Holy Spirit. now, i'm no longer troubled. not wanting to think abt it either. i can't possibly let this affect my entire being. there are more impt and urgent things to do. and i know that things are getting beyond my control. it's time for me to let go, leave it aside and only move when God wants me too. my only prayer and wish is that he'll control his emotions better. whatever that was said last night was pretty hurting..and i will have a long day today that ends at 7pm..