today, I suddenly have this "missing people" syndrome. I miss Khalis especially so when he's in msia. I miss my family more. I miss mum, dad, sis, bro and po-po. I miss zhen guang. I miss Eleena...

I miss Khalis alot today. I guess it's prob I went to our fav pool place today. Brought Yu Xin to the pool at JEC and had a game with him. Then, it jus reminded me so much of Khalis. I rmb we always go there to play pool and how he loves to play pool and the look of him when he does. Ha. It jus brought back all the pool memories i have with him--the short 1-game at vivo, the sit-down-watch-you-play times, the games we had together...i miss those times, i miss him. Then, later on in the night, I was drinking hot milo and *boom* it reminded me of Khalis again. Ha. Cos he loves to drink hot milo too! Just like me when I have supper at night. Oh well. It's sad I can't tell him now but I hope he sees this when he comes back! Come back soon yea? Miss chatting with you! And I miss riding on his bike! somehow. random. Was telling yu xin while playing pool that I have a sudden urge to ride on the bike...bleah.

I miss my family. After staying in hall for a week, i really do miss them. I miss talking to them, chatting with them, laming arnd with my siblings, joking, spending time with them...I really hope that hall doesn't affect my relationship with my family negatively but rather bring it up. actually, i did see the good side of it like i realised i can share more openly with mum over the phone and i can talk better with boy on the phone too. though for sarah, it's talking to her face-to-face that still works. well, i really do hope things will work out for the good..

but it's quite a pity that every sat afternoon i always go out and study. i dunno if i shld change this style. staying at home is having my presence there though i'm busy and also feeling them arnd. i wonder. but one thing tat's keeping me away frm the hse is cos of the distractions--tv, com, siblings relaxation since their exams are over. and the pull factors to go out and study is cos i wun fall aslp that often outside and since i'm already out (for tutn and band prac), i might as well spend 3 hrs studying outside. hmm.

suddenly i miss eleena. was spending time praying for her today. i miss her chats, her smile, her presence in chr, a looking fwd to catching up with her every sunday. oh well. but i know she's there training up and being taken care of by Father. so i know she's safe. besides, there's always email to keep in touch with! jus need more discipline to reply her and i wonder if she'll have the time to reply me too.

i suddenly miss zhen guang too cos yu xin was mentioning going to bukit timah to play pool. and who lives in that area? zg! it reminded me of the social nite with him and the drinking session with him and jason. so technically, i also miss jason. well, those 2 times were well-spent. i miss those times, his company and his time with me. his chats too.

oh well. and for place, i will miss jec! know why? COS THEY ARE GOING TO CLOSE THAT PLACE FOR RENOVATION FOR ONE YEAR!!! One year leh...tat's very long! I will certainly miss that place lah! totally! it has been my fav hang-out place since young! chr used to be there so most of the time my family goes there for lunch. and je is the place where is the central mtg place. so near mrt and the in between my red-line Bukit Batok stn and the green-line stns. it's big. it's spacious. it holds alot of memories. the dinosaurs, the macs, the kfc, the cinema, the this fashion, the pool (OH NO! the POOL!!! KHALIS! LET'S PLAY POOL THERE AGAIN N TAKE A PHOTO THERE!), the ice skating ring (where it's the first time i ice-skate recently--only this year!), the archade, the lan, the kopitiam upstairs, the place where i have my lunch when i study for A's at the JE Lib, delifrance, LJS...man...i'll totally MISS tat place! why muz they close the whole thing? why can't jus renevote bit by bit, part by part? besides, there has already been alot of changes--the kopitiam, the cinema...sigh. sad man... =( I'll miss Jurong East Entertainment Center. So guys, do rmb to go down by 31 oct k? for the last time. 31oct will be the last day of operation!

okay. today sounds super emo. ha. but i'd a good day too!

[recount]

gave tuition. told leo's dad my plans to stop teaching. managed to manage time better. went for lunch with sh where i had to bear the spiciness of the korean food. had a good follow-up on holy spirit. though good, but i felt bad. i shld have prepared better, be more diligent in doing all the qns so i can plan out the lesson--like what to go thru and what to leave as hw. then, we cld have a more productive time and go thru the other qns. but anyway, the qns that we went thru were good. a gd exposure for she and i. i din noe there was so many verses that talks abt the HS. i was quite happy, in fact. so nxt time i know where to refer and see and get the verses! =) and i'm glad i managed to do a matching game memory verse for sh as revision. guess she never had time to rmb them so decided to do it. she was quite fascinated and it was an encouragement to me. the GREATEST encouragement i get frm her today was her sharing on her struggles. and it makes me appreciate more how she takes time out to do follow-up, her passion n enthusiasim for this bible study. will be praying for you, sister!

after that, we parted and i studied in je lib for 3hrs plus. and i spent 3 hrs on a maths tut!!! was quite disappointed in myself. but i comforted myself saying that jc is different from uni. it's more in-depth, more tedious. so tat's why i spend more time. not cos i'm slow...so step on it Sharon! don't be dishearted!

after that, rush thru my material science tut where my notes can't help much. not enough explanation and need my textbook. then, rush thru my phys tut too. anyway, skipped alot of qns cos i can't do. stared, questioned, look-see-refer, skip. that's it. can't get any values lah. can't proceed. don't know wad to apply. sigh. will i fail my phys? I hope not. man. i know i've not been good at phys all along. muz really buck up! muz master it girl!

so met yu xin for dinner at the coffee shop. with his new haircut! which was nice! not bad. a change. the first impression i got: he looks like shi yuan. ha. the fringe. but the colour and the hair cut is nice. at least it's "less in volume" as quoted by him. neater. styled. dyed a light brown (in my opinion). i dunno leh. hope it can leave a gd impression on his interviewers.

after that, brought him to pool, as mentioned earlier. played 2 games. then he taught me some skills. yay. thanks man. at least nxt time i wun be so blur when i play pool. thanks for the treat too! had a good game. after an hour, we headed off to take bus. after that, had a sudden urge to jus sit arnd and chat with him. so stopped at west mall there, got a seat at the kopi roti there, drink and chat. ha. and it was the first time i said the word "gao". one of the first few times i used hokkien to someone i dunno and order things. so weird. haha. and we were making a joke outta it too. lol. well, had a good chat with yu xin. laugh. catch up. chat. well, thanks for your sharing on the bus too! i hope you feel better talking it out and will be okay! stay strong man! I have faith in you! thanks for your company today too! it was great being able to spend time with you today!

so came home. chat with mum. though i miss seeing dad the whole day. then, headed off to do the impt and urgent things i need to do. the report and form etc. and i owe khalis a post. i think inspiration is coming! hope can pin it down soon else he'll kill me when he comes back! ha. tml there's a mtg. hope my brain can work and come up with ideas and be a gd teammate! hope to know my 2 crusaders teammates better! =)