today, I had softball training. More people came. And it was the last training. Well, indeed, I shouldn't have worried or think too much abt nxt friday. I just felt the Holy Spirit telling me that I should just leave nxt fri to God (the clash btw cell grp and softball training). And indeed, God took care of the arrangements. I wun be late for cell nxt week! =) but through this, i did learn a lesson and to set my priorities right.

so softball today wasn't too bad. at least now, i'm not feeling scared of going for training. glad there was Boo (or so i heard his name being called like that) who was there to guide me through. He was very steady and guided me really well when i was stressed up and thinking alot during the game. and he also showed concern for me when i accidentally caught the ball with my bare hands. ha. well, thanks lots senior! And thanks to Brandon too! my 2nd time playing with him and he guiding me. he was a great guide too :) but yar, i also got a bit of scolding from yi da :( will improve!

well, thank God my family arrived safely in Malacca =) yay. can put my worries down already. so i hope they will have a gd time there and a gd time bonding with ah-yi they all. well, and yes, that means i'm home alone here in Singapore and literally in my hse. a pity khalis is on night duties these 2 nights else can go out for rides (if i study hard enough during the day). nonetheless, we're going to have a night-out to celebrate yr bday on monday! =)) hope i'll be able to study much during this weekend especially since i didn't go for this hol partly cos of studies!

[reflections]

okay. to talk more abt reflections, this quote came to my mind: God's Will will never be thwart by man's plans and desires. So I shouldn't worry nor think too much nor pray babbling words and repeating them. instead, i should trust God more and depend more on Him. Matthew 6:7 and Romans 8:28-29 came to my mind while writing this down in my diary. So trust God girl!

interestingly, the QT talks abt rebilion and sin against God. it also challenges me to find out how I have rebelled against God this week. after reflecting, my answer was my failure to trust and depend on Him fully. So here and now, i would like to lay these issues to God once again: 1. new roomate 2. driving test 3. life partner and one more issue which i'm not comfortable to share here. So with these 4 issues, i wanna give it God!

[recount with thanks again]

well, to recount a bit, thank God the 10-man project is over. it was a good one where there were little quarrels and there was not a bad cohesiveness. almost everyone worked well with each other and i didn't affect negatively any relationship with the 9 of them. i was surrpised to receive some of my grp members' words of thanks and appreciated which was mass-sent to the grp. i was quite embarrassed though but they were all good encouragements. it goes to tell me further just how great and wonderful they all are! really appreciate their appreciation and hard work and effort they put in to the project!

Initially, i didn't want to be the leader cos i just joined the clique whereas everybody knows everybody since they were in the same FOC group. But i was still made the leader after i facilitated the first mtg (purely with the motive of getting it started). so, i took it on and really prayed hard. prayed that things will turn out good and fine especially relationships with people. thank God for Wanting too! she helped me alot by settling some relational probs and being the one i can discuss my plans, agenda and ideas with. she's always supportive and chip in much on how i can lead the grp. wanna thank the rest of the grp too! for their effort put in to this project. for their opinions raised and perseverance through all the mtgs (which were 1-hour long for all except one). and wanna thank the 2 intl grp mates that i have. they are really great and really did their part well. their english was not bad and they can manage a write up (of a few paragraphs) on their own! bravos! i think they deserve more praise! and thanks to yi chen and hong yi for doing up the intro and conclusion so well. english so powerful! thanks to hong yi for his optimism! really an encouragement! =))

okay. i dunno why. at first i have lots to say but i dunno why my mind went blank. i think i'm tired already. dunno why. i had about 9 hrs of slp last night! (the longest thus far) but still tired. ha. i wonder why i woke up so late also lor.10am. guess it's the bed. it's nice to slp on my own bed last night! but i hope i will be able to wake up in time for chr svc on sunday! :S

i guess, jus a last add-in, it's pretty amazing how God works and speaks to me! =)) cheers! and keep listening out to God's voice (booming loud or still soft), friends!