Today i was Cinderella. Not that I suddenly had a fairy godmother or had a pumpkin carriage, but I was scrubbing the kitchen with a sponge and cleaning all the dirty parts of it. cleaned the corners and was on all fours to scrub each tile on the floor. not to forget the cupboards. doesn't that remind you of Cinderella where she has to do these household chores? yeah. I felt so much like her. thankfully my mum recognises the work. oh. she was the one that told me to do so anyway. well, glad to complete it in 1.5hours. and mum said it's not bad. but it sure is back-breaking.

makes me think if i shld do the same thing to my house nxt time. bleah. it sure is going to be tiring. to have to do it for the nxt half of my life. unless my husband puts in the effort to recognise my work, i think i'll prob hire a cleaner to clean the kitchen or paste some paper at the corners so i can jus take it off and throw it away when it's dirty. haha. some lazy man's idea but it sure is depressing doing it alone!

looking at this thing in this perspective makes me think when I'm going to meet my prince. makes me sad too. making me more emo than i already was at the start of the day.

yeah. this whole day i was super emo. i was very sad. i really felt like crying and crying my heart out. riding on the bike and spending time with khalis was nice nonetheless but it still made me sad. i din feel any better. i really din expect nor wish for things to turn out this way. i tot it wld be fun and nice. i tot we cld have a good celebration and a good christmas and a good closure to this year. but this year marks the start and end of it. why? why muz it be like that? i really dun understand and didn't expect so. i'm sad. and i'm guessing that he's probably not going to read this nor entertain anymore of me.

and it sure didn't help that my tooth still aches. that it hurts even more though. even after i'd taken painkillers. it hurts alot. i went to see the dentist jus now and my mum who was present kept asking the doc abt root canal therapy and suggesting it. man. if only she doesn't mention it, then, perhaps there can be other treatment? the dentist was nice lah. he was gentle with me and assures me well. he said that my nerves are either dead or dying. so that's why it's painful. ahh.

root canal therapy. did a bit of checking online jus now. below this para is a graphical explanation of the treatment. mum says it's going to be done over 3 appts! that means 3 injections! it sure is going to hurt and i totally dun like injections! I hate pain! hate injections...for now, i really hope the pain in my tooth will subside. it's really painful :(

As i was doing my QT jus now, one qn that was written in the material made me think: what attachment to this world do you struggle with the most? My answer: an attachment that I need to have a life partner. The text for this is Heb 11:8-16. The main focus is to remind us that we are pilgrims on the journey to Heaven. And in heaven, there is no husband and wife and that earth is not where you permanently reside. I am jus passing by, fulfilling the purpose God calls me to do whether I am to do it alone or with a partner. Yar. Eternity...