sigh. i don't know why but I feel very lost and confused. I just feel pain and sorrow within me. I've no idea why I feel this way. After I parted with my frens, the veil jus came down--a veil i didn't know I had put on. I suddenly feel lost. Feeling a loss of identity. I know, in my head, that my identity is in Christ. But there's a battle within me. To go to the other side, be wild and crazy, experiment with crazy hair-do etc. Is it the growing up phase? the search of identity, in a spiritual sense, in every youth? a time when values and beliefs will be challenged? Is that why God warns and urges us to stay strong in the faith and in Him? Telling us again and again that we are not to be part of this world or follow the world; He hates the world's values. Sigh.

I also don't want to be self-centered. I know I can never reach perfection of having no self-centeredness inside of me. But I want to, truly be less self-centered...to have God at the center of my heart. Wake up Sharon!