so BSF started on Monday! It was good. It feels good to be back in the fellowship and body of Christ. And it feels good to sing hymns again. and it's even better that I get another chance and avenue to learn God's Word and in a deeper way. I'm glad John and Dennis signed up for BSF though both of them met with resistance initially.

My group was not too bad. Though I'm one of the youngest there. Those studying in uni are in year 2 or 3 and in NUS. Sigh. I'm the only one in NTU. Oh well. Well, I'm glad I managed to encourage one of my group members to be an usher together with me! I explained much and gave much enthusiasm! Hope she'll like it! To serve wtih joy and a smile! It's good medicine for the heart!

Well, after the lecture and all, we had a class fellowship. The leaders bought food for all of us. then i was questioned, "does free food always occur?" then, it made me wonder, why do we place so much emphasis on the word "free"? Why does it seem to be an NTU culture thing to be on a look-out for freebies? Even among the christians, i hear it quite commonly. shouldn't we christians be just stewards of our money? giving and sharing food with others is but a blessing to them; a way of serving others; a token of offering to God in appreciation for His love...I just wish that we all cld be mindful that money is jus temporal, food is but a means to survival while our eternity is in heaven. freebies isn't the word we shld lookout for ourselves but rather to give to others...

Nxt, I was questioned recently how i find so much time for other courses. Yeah. I admit that sometimes i think about this too. Esp at the beginning of my counselling course. Now that i've finished, *YAY*, I really wanna thank God for seeing me through, giving me strength (esp through all the readings) and helping me learn more about counselling and the skills. I muz say tat it's insightful and helpful to me.

And what is the motivation that made me go for this course? Why and how do i find time amidst the busy student uni life? I would say that it's God. God's my motivation. Interest is second in place. it's these 2 factors that pushed me to go for the course week-after-week for 6 weeks, quiz EVERY week and a reflection paper to write about. And i believe it's this kinda courses that makes life not so dull and boring. that there is more to it then learning the subjects in school, more than jus for the degree, but rather, for interest, for learning, for helping others, for God. it enriches life, makes life more "rounded" as educators say. And so, will i find the time for more courses? Will you see me signing up for more? I certainly hope so! May I not be consumed by the studies and ways of the world, but seek first His Kingdom and to give myself a healthy mind and body for the Holy Spirit to live in.

So what other courses am I thinking of? Language courses, more counselling course, dance courses (but I need a dance partner first!!), music? I guess that phrase of my life is over already...

Okay. Yesterday, a funny thing happened. I was boarding the 190 bus and suddenly, I felt someone stepped on the back of my shoe. then, *oops*, my foot came out of the shoe! ha. I was so embarrassed. I had to move back (while i was on the steps), and try to take my shoe and move forward. Bleah. so funny and paiseh. i think the guy was also quite paiseh.

then, another thing happened. i sat beside this super handsome and smart guy. okay. his looks is besides the point. then, i saw him writing on a notebook. me being kaypo, i tried to read and looked at what he's writing. honestly, his handwriting was qutie bad. very hard to read and make it out. but i managed to make out words like "Lord Jesus Christ" and "pray" and "thank you Lord". Ha. then, i realised he's a christian and writing on a diary. i wanted so much to greet him and say that i'm his sister-in-christ but i was quite scared to do so. i mean, there's nothing else on him that says he's a christian except for wad he has written. and if he asks me how i know he's a christian, i wld be very embarrassed to say that it's because i looked at what he's writing. plus, i din noe what else to say after greeting him.

ahhh...i was quite stuck throughout the whole journey. in the end, i jus left the bus like that. as i look into the bus where he sat after i've alighted, there's an aching nag that says that i shld have spoken to him. he looked super tired. if i spoke to him, maybe i cld help him, give him some encouragement etc. sigh. i shld have...oh well. if it's God's will, we'll cross paths again. otherwise, i jus pray tat this stranger will be strengthen and i'll be more sensitive to the Holy Spirit.

Stranger stranger, why do you look so tired?
Writing on a diary, massaging your tense shoulders
With hardly a smile, you looked out of the window
Hoping for something different, thinking about what to write

I'm sorry I chanced upon your diary
And read that you are a Christian
Wanted to greet you but I tarry
So this is my silent prayer:

May you find strength while you look burdened
In God alone, is our only solace
May you find peace in your wandering thoughts
And claiming God's promises in each day you face

God bless you! (: