Just suddenly feel like blogging some things. But don't know how much I should say, how deep should i talk about each issue and how much thoughts to reveal. Sigh. I bet my bestie, Khalis, will say that the blog is my own and I can just express whatever I want. But to me, I also have to be sensitive to others. People are reading. And I'm reflecting on what had happened to my friends, my surroundings and my environment...it isn't all that nice to blurt out my thoughts if I've never mentioned to them before right?

Well, maybe I'll start with something easy to say. Thought number 1: the number one thing I'm looking out in a guy: Christian maturity. I know it sounds random but I just want to write this down to remind myself. The guy must be a Christian and hopefully spiritually mature. Having a Christian partner really makes a lot of difference. Was talking to mum recently: if my partner is a Christian, will there ever be a balance between the time we spent with each other and the time spent outside each other? And her reply was that there WILL be a balance as long as both of you have the same value system and beliefs. And how true it is! From what we value most and what priorities are important to how we spend weekends and praying for each other, that Christian guy and I will have similar value system and can share the joy and pain with me. The encouragements and advice received will far exceed what a non-Christian partner can give. And as in every relationship, partners influence each other the most. So, rmb Sharon, be influenced by Godly influence. In this way, you'll grow and you'll help him to grow. And trust me man, God will be pleased. Amen.

Thought number 2: I'm starting to feel stressed up! I just realised that it's slightly past mid-week and I haven't done much work!!! Ahh..tat's so unlike me! Usually I complete my work fast and early. Bleah. "Back-slided". I gotta catch up with my work. and i start to feel the pressure when i see that i have the project to handle and the lab report to submit. super stress. how to study for tests? I don't know. Plus, not to forget, I still have my other engagements like lunch with Pastor tml and studying with Kok Siong (tat's a must cos I need his help) on Friday. Sigh. Aiyo. I think I spent too much time relaxing--Pulau Ubin cycling the whole day on Monday, Movie + Shopping on Tues, Dinner appt on Wed...bleah. Better buck up! But also wanna shout out: I'M STRESSED!

Thought number 3: Thank God once again. He is great. He is awesome. He is wonderful. And He works in miraclous ways! I love you God!

Thought number 4: Quite looking forward to lunch with Pastor Janet on thu. Quite happy to have this chance. Though it means another few hours gone from studying, I would rather invest my time in relationship with her. After all, she's my pastor and I ought to play my part, put in the effort on my side n keep in touch with her. It's not easy being a pastor of a flock. So let this sheep do her part and make it easier. Hope to have a good time of chat and fellowship and sharing. I hope she'll be encouraged by what God is doing in my life and I hope I'll be encouraged through her too. Pastor, I love you too.

Thought number 5: (I hope you don't mind me writing this down, friend) "Are you sad for me? Are you disappointed in me?" "No. I'm not disappointed in you. But I'm sad with you." I just felt that it was God's words put into my mouth when I said it to my friend. The word "with" really makes alot of difference. It brings with it a meaning of "I'm with you together in this. You are not alone. I feel the way you feel and wnat to feel what you feel." And this is my sincere and genuine thought. The one word "with" just summarises it all. So, my friend, I know once in a while you read my blog. So this is to you: Whatever comes, always remember that I am here. And so is God. And I feel for you and want you to know that you can always turn to me and pour out whatever feelings you have. Continue to pray and trust in God for guidance, wisdom and discernment.

Thought number 6: I want to go and slp already. Goodnight!