Thank God for answering my prayer! Indeed, He's a faithful and loving and LISTENING God who hears my cries, knows my thoughts and my needs and answers them in His own time, by His own way...

On Monday, I felt a strong prompting from the Holy Spirit. And it was further confirmed after BSF that night. I was also sharing with John how I felt. I was struggling. Then, I felt I wasn't taking BSF seriously. Or rather, I wasn't learning and taking God's Word through BSF seriously. I still did my QTs but the qns were always answered half-heartedly. And everytime I see John answering them diligently and so full of enthusiasm, it really aches and pokes my heart that I should do the same too! I felt that I've lost the love and genuine passion for God's Word.

So I told God that night that I want to change. I asked Him to help me out and change me. Having the beautitudes in mind, I ask God to give me a longing for His Word and to re-ignite the passion for Him. And I also shared with my DG leader, Xiu Qian the next day. She prayed for me there and then too! Quite glad. Then, things started to change...

God answered my prayer! Everyday, I really looked forward to doing BSF qns, learning more about God through the readings and questions and also through my other materials. More importantly, I learned more about God and the Bible through the Holy Spirit within me! I began not just to pine for God's Word but also to spend time with God and to pray and to read and just be still. So much so that on Thursday, when I stayed back in main campus to study, I had this very strong urge to rush back to hall to read the Bible!

That day, I was in school studying with my friends. All the way till dinner. And usually, after dinner or around that time, I would read the bible before resuming my work. But tat day, I didn't bring my bible out. i left it in hall. and so after dinner, uncomfortably, i went back to the lib and studied with my frens. throughout the whole time, i was super restless. i couldn't concentrate alot. my mind and heart was just simply longing for my room and the bible. i stayed in school till 10pm before i finally gave in, stopped doing my work, found a fren and walked back to hall. i was super happy to be back in the room and at my table again! So much so that even after i'd finished settling down (showered, wash clothes etc) at midnight, i just grabbed the bible and read it. though it was late and my mind was saturated with studies, it gave me much peace and pleasure to read His Word and just be in His presence...

This wasn't the only incident. Yes, it was a highlight. Something I wouldn't forget and something tat stands out. But today, God showed me how faithful He had been througout the week. Indeed, throughout the whole time, I enjoyed every QT I had with God and moment spent with Him. I was touched by what He said and spend more time just reflecting and praying. And I thank God that He answered my prayer and touched me in a special way this week.

It is my prayer that this longing and passion and fire will fan into flames and not die out. I pray that I'll continue to be close to God and keep the fire going. For Him. For God alone. Amen.