There are always 2 sides to looking at the situation. Either optismitically or pessimistically. And now, I'm presented with 2 sides that I can take--either wallow in self-pity, pondering over things and just shaking my head away. Or be thankful still for what is still present and just be contented with what I have. Which should I take?

I don't know if it's the person that changed or the situation that made me see it this way. From my point of view, things seems to have changed alot on a spiral down. Things just don't used to be the same as before. Saying this, am I hoping and expecting for things to be the same? I don't know. Perhaps so. Or maybe expecting things to be better or just be the same. Or maybe, not such a drastic change. But in reality, it seems to me to be a drastic one. In a really short time. With changes in situations, I really wonder if it's the situation or the person that changed.

On the other hand, to make myself happier or even comforted, I just keep telling myself that things aren't that bad. And remind myself of all the things that is still being done right now though not what I hoped for. But, still, the art of gratefulness is one to be gasped and held on to so as to make life more cheerful.

Sigh. Saying this is a risk. But I really wanna get it off my chest. I really don't know what to do. This is one person whose relationship I don't want to take lightly. I just don't want things to turn bad, sour or ugly. I just want it to be the best for us both. I just hope I can handle this maturely. I want to.