Wow! Just so busy with doing up my blogskin over the past few days that I didn't have proper time to sit down and get a personal post up! Finally! Well, I won't say it's all done up. I've no idea why sometimes, my page doesn't load. And I jus found a prob with the pic. Tried to solve it but I can't. So i jus give up lor.

Well, what shall I write here? Oh ya! There's just one thing I wanna say and thank God for! For letting me have the habit of writing in my spiritual journal notebook! And, as always, God speaks to me as I write. Boy! Yesterday I was feeling pretty low and have quite a low self-esteem :( many circumstances happened around me that I just sinked deep.

So, as I was doing my QT after I returned home at 11pm plus, I started writing on my journal. And as I write on, it filled up to 2.5 pages! That's really alot actually! I just lamented and talked about my circumstances, my feelings, my thoughts, what I really want...and as I wrtie, I began to see where the problem lies. The Holy Spirit was certainly opening up my eyes to see what was wrong and how I need to change.

The Bible passage that I read after that was another echoe of what was whispered to me. Isn't He amazing? Indeed, circumstances are there. I can be put down and feel down. That is only human. But the important thing is that I know where I had gone wrong, regained the hope I have in God, picked myself up by His Strength, smile through the storm and grow.

God is more concerned about your character than your comfort.

It didn't seem like the first time I heard that phrase but somehow it hit me again. A strong reminder and a good comfort knowing that "God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose for them. For God knew His people in advance and He chose them to become like His Son..." Romans 8:28-29. Thank you God that in you, I can hope! Because of who you are, I can hope! And because of what you have done, I know I'm loved!

Another thing that I learned was a reminder that life is not all about me. Instead, it's about God. In my finte-ness and limited wisdom, I can't expect myself to make an impact and difference as what I wished for. I am an instrument for His works, channel of His blessing and speaker of His truth. That's the role I can play, the part where I can cooperate and the things I can do. May God work through me to make a difference in others' lives. May He take the glory and credit for it all!

On another note, I'm quite pressurized to get a job soon! Been spending too much money eating out, meeting people, having suppers etc. Gotta catch up on my bank account! Sure, I'm doing ad-hoc relief teaching. So far, I've taught for 3 days which will amount to $195. But, i think I better find a permanent temp job. One that can give me a consistent pay. Hope I can find a meaningful job soon! But I still love meeting up with my friends! (= meeting weiling and conray tml!! =D