Now, I really understand what people mean when they say "One thing i need to change is to stop gossiping". Wah. People really gossip and talk. It's like everywhere especially during lunch. Whenever I eat with my interns, there's always this one girl that talks alot and keeps gossiping about the same person. I don't know. I just keep quiet and just laugh along whenever. But there's really nothing i wanna say, not in my nature to add on, and dun think i wanna do so either. yee. I don't like gossips. I hope next time i won't be a topic of gossip.

Well, to be honest, I think i'd it before. Many times i suppose. Sigh. And I never really liked it. Especially when they do it so obviously in front of me. Sigh. Relationships and politics. So tricky. I wish I can escape it all, all at once, in a blink of an eye...

Talking about relationships, I think relationships/friendships in the office is very superfacial. I look around and see that people really just talk to gossip or show off or brag or I don't know...just not genuine. I don't feel the sincerity in their words. And it really makes me very sad...

Is my working environment next time gonna be like this? Is this what my friends and colleagues will be like? So superfacial? Then who will be my real friends? Where do I get my social life from? Who can I call to go out with, shopping, drinking, watch movies next time? Is there really someone out there in the office that I can talk to heart-to-heart next time?

I really wonder if it's a big company thing. That perhaps, in smaller companies and departments, such problems won't exist. Reason being that everyone is dependant on everyone. And everyone knows everyone. And since everyone is so few, the conversations can get a chance to be deeper. And that's when real, genuine friendships grow. Haha. That's my theory. I wonder if it's true...And it really makes me think of 2 things:

1. Next time when I grow up and work, do I really want to work in those big companies? Do I really want to go for fame, reputation and good resume all for putting my social life on a risk. Think twice, Sharon.

2. It makes me treasure the genuine friendships I have right now. In school and outside school. Especially in school. The people I see everyday, study with, lunch with, go out with, share hearts with, play, joke and cry with...It really makes me wanna cherish them ever more throughout the coming 3 years!

I don't think we'll be working in the same company when we graduate. And just thinking about it makes my heart break and makes me sad. We'll part our ways someday and when that someday comes, I wonder if we'll still be close. I wonder if they'll still be the friends I can call on to hang out, cry, invite them to my wedding and be invited etc. I really hope for the better. I really hope that we'll be still contactable and there for each other. And that, even if our office has superfacial relationships, we would know we still have each other. Or at least, I'll be there for them. I'll be there for you guys.

Well, in all these, I can only trust God to plan and give me the best. I pray that I would not meet with such sad circumstances, if it's God's Will. Amen.