Coming to my 4th week of work, I've realised something: Whether I'm working or studying, there is only 1 focus that I should have and 3 things I need to keep in mind:

1. Place God as the central focus
2. Tust in God in all things
3. Know that God is rest

This has came to my mind in recent days especially when I'm struggling through work. Yes. I did struggle. Work is tough and is totally different from studying and different from any other experience I have had. And in these days, there are alot of tug-of-wars. I've finally understood what the adults have been saying all along and what the media has been portraying of working adults. And yes, I've finally understood Roman 12:2 that warns us not to conform to the ways of the world.

Amid all my struggles, the Bible has also become more real and more amazing to me. It's filled with so much wisdom to guide me along life's path. It cautions me with care and commands me with sternness. It brings to my attention issues I'm grabbling with and shows the right way to live. Above all, it shows just how holy, great and wise God is! How beautiful and loving He is! That He is faithful and patient to me despite my failures. I feel so ashamed before Him.

Yesterday was quite a day. I had a good experience and was able to sit in to a meeting where all the managers of each Business Development (BD) department gathered for a briefing. They present and gave a short overview of what each dept is doing and also generate out a list of FAQs the visitors at nxt week's SIWW Exhibition will ask. So we went through them. It was good as I got to hear (audio) what each dept is doing and learn abt Hyflux as a whole. To grasp the whole idea of the different biz Hyflux is involved in and the direction that they are taking.

BUT the thing is that the meeting lasted for 4 hours! Yes! From 3pm to 7pm?!?! Can you believe it? Haha. It's long but still I manage to stay awake and learn. Haha. Jue Xuan! I'm not sleepy queen after all! Lol. But it was long such that I have to do OT for the last hour and it was the latest time I've ever stayed back at work. So you can imagine just how tired I was at the end of the day!

My head was heavy and swimming slightly, my legs were tired (somehow) and so are my limbs. I was quite exhausted. By the time I've reached home, it was around 8pm. Then I got news that my family is going out for ice-cream dessert. Ha. So I had to eat my dinner quickly, showered and perk myself up to enjoy a family outing. Boy! I took a chocolate ice cream cos it can make one alert right? Then, I can drive home! Yay! Yes. I drove from Island Creamery back home (: Thanks dad!

But when I reach home, I just plopped on the floor and chair and just rest. Tired. It's really tiring to work. Naturally, the TV is a big addiction to me and a temptation. Just felt so much to rest in the TV programmes and that's when the Bible kicks in--reminding me to rest in God instead of temporal and worldly things.

This is what I meant. And it wasn't just yesterday that I felt so. Yesterday was one of the worst but on most days, I feel tired and the same voice of resting in God, reading His Word and spending more time with Him in prayer echoes in my head. And yes, it's time I take heed of the Holy Spirit and obey.

To focus, to trust and to rest. That's what I'm set to do.