Today, I felt like jumping into the future and take a peek
To see the outcome and what might be
I wanted to see how things turned out
To see where and what we've become

But I know that it would never happen. Cos I know that God won't allow it. He wants me to go through each and every season of my life, each and every chapter of it. If I skip and peek at the final result, I would never learn to trust God. I would never learn my lesson. I would never learn what He wants me to learn.

Yes. The future is indeed very uncertain, the present unbearable and the past too ugly to look at. I fear. Honestly, I shake and tremble in fear.

But God holds my hand. In everything and every moment, He reaches out to hold my hand. He is willing to walk me through...if I would allow Him to.

And through today's circumstance, I know He wants me to learn. And I want to just commit my future into His hands. That whatever the outcome, I pray that I will surrender, I will lean on Him, I would cry to Him, I would trust Him.

Surrender is not easy. It's going to be a tough road. But I hope and pray that I can do it. With the Holy Spirit's help. Let go and entrust. God is indeed God.