Today, John reminded me time and again that it is tomorrow. Reality check. Yes. It really is tml. And, as exciting as this sounds, it really makes me scared. But I never really showed it. I am half-half about how things will go. Maybe cos the population is so big that I don't get a feedback or hear people talking about it. It makes me scared. Plus, publicity is quite limited. Its limitations on that day itself is also a constraint. So, I guess I have fears inside of me. I'm scared. Honestly. I really hope and pray that things will go smooth tomorrow and the day after. Lord, whatever it is, please let it be a good learning lesson to all of us. Good and bad, help me learn to let it go into your hands :)

Another fear I have started tonight. When my sister left the room to sleep outside. I know I piss her off last night but I really am not doing it now. Not tonight. Despite me having to off the radio, switch off the ceiling lights, and having to deal with just the desk light, I would rather endure all these than have them. I really miss having my sis to sleep in the room that belongs to her too. Yeah. I will miss talking to her at nights and hearing her thoughts when she's on the bed and disturb her. Sigh. I think I made a stupid mistake. I'm sorry, girl. My fear? That this would go on and thereafter it'll be detrimental to the rs. And who knows, eventually we won't talk and things made worse when she/I leave for overseas. Besides, she never talk to me on phone calls. So this is the best way to talk to her--face to face. Sacrifice is necessary in everything. I hope she'll come back and be understanding too.