This year's CNY is indeed different for me. For the first time, the holidays are long, I see Singapore being quiet and I get to spend most of the cny here in Spore! =) Usually, my family and I will go up to msia for a super long period of time, often until the end of hols. But this time round, we came back on the first day of cny.

Headed to the coffee shop near our place to get some dinner when we came back. And we found almost all the coffeeshops closed and it was really quite a sight! At 8pm plus, it was quiet and silent and a rare sight to see. I've never seen a quiet place. And mind you, that coffeeshop place is where I grew up. So it's significant when such a change happens :) Settled for macs eventually.

My trip back to msia was okay. The usual. Glad to see my grandma again. And my cousin's stylish house. That's the only highlight. If you ask me if I had a good time of catch-up and chat with my cousins, I wouldn't say yes. All along, it's always been awkward. It's been quiet and I really am shy and scared. I don't know how to start conversations with people who are older than me. And they are really older than me--working kinda age. I'm considered one of the younger few there. To add on, me staying in spore doesn't help much in opening topics esp when it concerns msia news. So I can't talk much. Sigh.

It's really a sad case. That's why everytime we go back to msia, I'm quiet and bored. There's really nothing to do there. Cannot go shopping, cannot watch movie and all the shopping centers are so inaccessible! I don't know how to take public transport! And it's really tough attempting to take one. Even driving around can cause us to get lost! Haha. But my dad's clever! His instincts are sharp! I hope I inherit his too! =)

Oh well. But I'm glad that this visit opened up a topic for me to discuss with my cousin over fb chat. Got a bit of his advice and really grateful for him listening to me and what I have to say, however honest it was. Yeah. And thank God for technology like this! Allows me to connect with my cousins and share courteous greetings. However polite it is, it is still a greeting that helps bridge the gap a little :)

Okay. So in Singapore, I headed to Bugis Junction on Monday. To kinda celebrate Conray's bday and have a little gathering among the 3 of us--zg, myself and conray. It was fun and nice to be able to catch up. And for the first time, bugis junction is awfully quiet too! Never seen this before!

After that, I went to meet up with Yam Wenn and went to Bugis Village for the first time! I've never been there too! Bought a beautiful dress for myself and another dress for my sis to wear to work (though it was a bit big for her). But it was good buy! And only 1/3 of the shops were opened. Still, I'm sure going back there again! I bet it'll be crowded but I love the crowd! =) I don't mind squeezing past ppl and watching theri faces and mannerisms. That whole Bugis Village reminds me of Taiwan! Fun! =)

Today, I went over to Wanting's house. Enjoyed that visit as I get to see her family again. And my friends too! Been quite a while since I last saw them!

There, they also planned a Cambodia trip that I don't think I'll go. Honestly, it's quite sad that I'll miss out on this chance. This 1st overseas trip together. But I've decided not to succumb to peer pressure. Though I will miss out on this chance to really bond with them, play together, have fun together, iron things out together, but I don't think I'll pay such a price just to be with them. Not that their presence is insignificant, but that I can bond and spend time with them in other ways and using that same amount of money in things that I will also enjoy. Seriously, Cambodia isn't a place I would go for leisure. If ever I should go there, it would only be for mission trip. That is the need that I'm willing to fulfil. It is where I'm willing to be a good steward of my money and spend it there.

Oh well. I guess I'll just have to forfeit this chance and just bid them farewell. Hope their planning will go smooth and that they'll enjoy themselves. Most importantly, that Wanting will be able to find another female companion so that she won't be alone and in an awkward position!

Hmm. I gotta decide whether to go to China this July by 24 Feburary! Next Wed!!! That is super soon! Way way sooooo soon!! I really am still confused. I really don't know what to do!!! I haven't decided and can't decide yet! Perhaps, I should list my pros and cons. I guessed I've listened to enough opinions already. I should start thinking about what I really want! And most importantly, to talk to my only push factor--Owen. Gotta talk to him, tell him how I really feel and see if we can work things out together. Mm. Hope I'll be able to find that chance to talk to him!

Recently, I've been thinking alot about this guy I've mentioned previously. And the more I think, the more I feel uneasy about it. It just seems so weird and odd. He's so much way older than me. That's one thing clear. I really don't know what to do for that either. I know that things should be slow but somehow, with the initiatives that he takes, I kind of have to second guess what he's trying to aim at. I've postponed things. Using something of my daily life's activities as a reasoning. But I wonder how long this can hold. I wonder where I should go. Man. This sure is tricky!! :S

Oh well. Okay. That aside, this cny is really slack for me. I really and thoroughly enjoyed myself! So shiok! Watch tv, didn't do much work and just spend time with friends and family. I enjoy it! Really different from my daily life. But I sure hope that my work doesn't snowball. Esp my lectures :S I have lots more to cover!! Thank God that I'm recovering fast but I'm still slping late. Hopefully it doesn't summon another bout of serious illness!