It didn't dawn on me even when I saw her at the airport. It didn't hit me at all. Only until I was in the car at westmall and then, I suddenly knew that I'm not going to meet her at BK anymore for the next 6 months. And a wave of reality hit me. It was then that I felt sad and a feeling of "I miss you" kick in. It dawned on me, alright, but only much later.

It had never occured to me that it was going to be like that. It never hit me that I'm going to miss her and all the meet-ups we had and all the Bible study sessions and chats and jokes and discussion and proving-our-point. 6 months. That's long. And in this 6 months, I wonder what is going to happen. I wonder how things are going to be like. I wonder if we'll still keep in contact. I wonder how her spiritual life will be. I wonder...

And the biggest wonder I have is whether she'll still remember how to go to BK in westmall and meet me there. I really feel sad that this day has come and it's going to be so for the nxt few months. Sigh.

Reality check. Somehow, reality always hits me late. It's only when I'm all alone, not having anything important or urgent on my mind, then suddenly a wave of emotion that accompanies the reality floods in. I wonder why I'm so slow. Haha. Well, at least, I know this is reality. Whether I like it or not, I just have to accept it. Accept it.