Yes! Finally I can blog! It's been a really long time since I last blog cos I haven't had the inspiration recently and I have been too busy at night. Yes, you can still find me on fb and appearing offline on msn. But I just can't blog. Glad I've finally had the inspiration but wonder how much I can squeeze in the remaining time!

First, wanna say that I'm sooooo busy! I've started working. Not a permanent one but ad-hoc. Bringing pri & sec sch students to different parts of Singapore for outdoor learning. So far, I've brought Holy innocents pri & St Anthony's to T3 for lessons. It was good. Not bad. And Nanyang pri to Hort park (which was quite bad cos it was a science lesson). It was tougher teaching science than maths. I still like maths *beams*

But doing that is really tiring. Plus, I haven't recovered fully from my sore throat. So all this while, I've been teaching with that sexy voice of mine! :S quite bad actually. I know I shouldn't be so harsh on my body but I really have to work and earn that money to pay off my bills. Geez. If it's not for those bills, I would have done less or take time off in between. Oh well. Since I always spend before I earn, it's time I make good my word/concept.

When it comes to at night, I'll be busying replying emails. Boy! I've never had to reply so many emails and so urgently before! All the accomodation in china. Liasing with 2 people now. And emailing my flatmates etc. It's so tedious! And so many things to settle. So many questions to ask. Ha. And it's not just the 2 of them that I have to reply. But also to some of my friends whom I'm keeping in contact with. Talking about which, I've yet to email Jeremy & Shuhui. Ahh. How I wish I can just sit down and have the time to write a looong email to them. How I miss them so much!

Boy! Working is really taking alot of time. Now, the feeling floods back when I don't really like working. If only I can just don't work and don't study. Be able to do what I like and can still sustain life. Hmm. Do you think I should go work in some farm area? Grow my own vegetable garden, have some animals and lead a self-sustainable life? Then I don't need to make money. Just make sure the vegetables & animals are enough to provide for my meals. Haha. What an interesting thought! Perhaps eh? :P

Okay. On another note, I've been reading and learning alot recently from the various authors and notes that I've read. Would like to share here. The first one is from my BSF notes on John 8. John 8:12 "...I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life." It talks about how we need to follow Jesus cos He is the one beaming with light and gives life. And I like what the notes writes: "Our Lord makes this promise for those in the condusion of uncertainty or the darkness of insecurity, for those who know not their origin or destination. To have light is also to have life, for human life cannot flourish where there is no light. Although you may live in a place of great darkness, as you personally choose to be with Jesus and move with Him as He works in your situation, you will walk in full confidence, for the darkness around cannot touch the life of the one who walks in His light."

The phrase that highlighted to me most is "move with Him". It's more than just having the light, holding on to the light. But it's also moving with it. It's a continuous action. It's obedience to His Will. And it's something that I must do more intentionally and consciously. I gotta get up from where I am and move together with God. To walk in His light, to abide by Him :) That is my prayer!

I've also learned a fair bit from the book "A woman God can use". Life lessons from OT women. Read on Eve & Leah. Beautiful women. I learned that the tree of good and evil was there so that Adam & Eve could love God meaningfully. It brought me to think what object/situation in my life is similar to that tree? A temptation, a distraction but yet, it teaches me to love God meaningfully and intentionally. It's a good thought and reflection and I'm glad I got my answer. I am going to love God meaningfully despite it all.

From Leah, I learned that God often works in our lives, not by giving us perfect situation, but by showing His power and love in our imperfect situation. This is clearly seen when Leah, with all her longing for a husband's love, was seen by God and given children. Her situation didn't change still but her mindset changed. You can see it from her naming of the children. She changed from what she wants to what she have in God. That is a mindset that we can all adopt too. And through this imperfect situation (without a husband's love), one of her sons was the chose tribe to have King David and thereafter the seed of Abraham--Jesus. Beautiful ending. Thank God for being all so powerful! And indeed, He is incomprehensible! :)