Sometimes, it is scary when you are too close to someone. You tend to show your angry side more often, be less bearing and accomodating, and less careful with your words. There seem to be a lack of joy, excitement and sparkle to really talk and get to know him/her more. There is friction and tension. And bearing with the awkwardness and guilt that haunts you after you've said and done something not pleasant.

Sigh. Human relations are really tough. Especially with people whom you are close to (minus the family cos a family will always be a family. faults are easily forgiven; at least in my case). I wonder how it'll be like in the future. With friends whom I'm close to but haven't gone to the disagreement and quarrel stage. Wanting, John, Peter, Bethia and the others in my clique. Also my future partner. Disagreements will make or break the friendship. And I am very afraid it'll break the friendship. That's the last thing I want. The last thing on my mind. But it is that scary.

I'm seeing and witnessing it now, right before my eyes. And I'm afraid of what the consequences will bring.

I believe that's why God gives us words of wisdom to guide our lives. It's hard to live out His way but it is THE way.

Ephesians 4:2-3
Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace.

Ephesians 4:25-27
Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to your neighbor, for we are all members of one body. “In your anger do not sin”: Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold.

Ephesians 4:29
Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.

Ephesians 4:32
Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.